Revelations...

I consider myself to be a very positive person, especially when it comes to my life. I always try and see the glass half full and assume that the best will work out for me. Unfortunately, it doesn't quite work that way. I've been back in nyc for over a month now and I'm still unemployed. That doesn't bother me so much. Aside from the boredom and tedious monotony of having nothing to do but get rejected by seemingly every industry, I still had positive vibes about my prospects and that I would find a job eventually.

Over the weekend, well just yesterday actually, I kind of had a shocking revelation about my life and the kind of life I want to lead. I was in Baltimore for a wedding of a family friend and naturally there were many other family friends there. Talking with people about their lives, or specifically their careers, was mind blowing. It's no so much what people are doing but the general notion behind their careers. They all seem to be helping people. Making the world a better place. Doctors, nurses, scholars, lawyers, engineers, whatever people did there was a direct positive effect on someone else. As an aspiring filmmaker you could argue that movies and tv makes people happy. But so do drugs and last I checked they weren't good for you. I think I realized yesterday that I live a really selfish life and for all the rhetoric I spew about helping people and making the world a better place, I don't really do anything substantial about it. Sure I recycle, reduce and reuse and give homeless people my change and sign petitions and write emails, but there is so much more that I can do.

I decided that I need to change gears a little bit and focus on finding a job that has a positive influence on people. The only problem is that I'm not sure what I can do. I want to dive into something but as it's never been something I've researched a whole lot, I'm not sure where to begin. I'm sure a non-profit would work but how do I get involved on a level other than handing out fliers and calling people for donations? I don't need to make a lot of money but obviously it's a factor. Anyways, if you know something give me a call/email/comment/facebook message/text or whatever but I could use the help!! I know a lot of you are doing things along these lines and would love some input. As far as film goes I think I'm just going to focus on writing for a while and still do freelance productions but I don't think I'm going to keep sending out resumes to the Trya Show or MTV or NBC. When I look back at my life in however many years, I don't want to regret anything. I want to be able to say I did something good and made people's lives better.

Dr. King said, "Make a career of humanity... and you will make a greater person of yourself, a greater nation of your country, and a finer world to live in," and, "Life's most persistent and urgent question is: what are you doing for others?" Indeed.

Go big.

-M, p, z & shredder

McCain is Senile...

It happens to a lot of old people. They start to lose their memory. They start to remember things differently. They are unable to answer questions that they are asked and instead go off on some tangent about nothing related. It's like on the Cosby show when Dr. Huxtable would try and tell a story about something but inevitably it would end up about his days at Hilman and when he was a kid. So it doesn't strike me as odd that it happened to McCain. He's an old dude and that's what happens to old people. They lose their minds. You ask them a simple question and you get a ridiculous answer.



I stole this from that guy over at the Revue but it's worth a repost.



Recently though, he has gotten out of control. Remember back in 2000 how McCain wasn't crazy? I remember thinking that I hope Gore wins, but McCain isn't the worst that could happen. That was almost a decade ago. Since then he crossed into his 70's and lost his mind. This guy is over 70 years old. I don't even want my parents to work in the yard too long or do anything too stressful because they're old and they are a decade younger than McCain. He has gone senile. He forgot everything he used to stand for and has lost all of his principals. I used to respect him. Remember when people wanted him to come over to to the Democrats? People thought he could transcend party lines. But he stayed on the Dark side. He's kind of like Darth Vader. He used to be good but then got too tempted by power. Then he became everything the Sith represented: power crazy and loyal to people who only cared about money and power. Right now he is at the point where he cuts off Luke's hand. He's got Han Solo frozen in carbonite and we are all just shocked at what is happening. Hopefully the rest of this election process goes like Star Wars did and the good guys win, but so far we haven't gotten to the good part when he comes to his senses and he throws the Emperor (George Bush) into the main reactor of the Death Star.



Anyways, I'm out. Go big.

-M, p, z & shredder

26...

26 years old. It's kind of crazy. Mostly because I have accomplished nothing so far in my life. But I'm hopeful that this is going to be the year of accomplishment. Or at least I am going to wish it is. I'm not a huge fan of birthdays. I'm not sure why. I love celebrating other people's birthdays but not my own. When it's your birthday I'll be the first to start poring shots. But for me, it sort of feels like a big sham actually. I mean I can understand that people would want to celebrate my birth because I'm so awesome, but the general idea of celebrating it is kind of silly. Perhaps it because I feel unaccomplished that I don't think there's a whole lot to celebrate. Whatever the case may be, I appreciate the birthday well-wishes and thank you.

Also I just realized that my birthday is rarely on a weekend. Obviously it's the case for most people since there are many more weekdays than weekends, but I feel like my birthday is always on a Monday or a Tuesday which might be my two least favorite days of the week. No one wants to celebrate anything on a Monday. Which is why much of today will be business as usual. Laundry, gym, job hunting and then at 5 I am being surprised with my plans for the night. Not sure what I'll be doing but I assume it will be fun. I just hope there's cake...

-M,p,z & shredder

Uh...Um...

I can't speak for everyone here, but I can remember growing up and being told not to use the word 'um.' Not like it was a bad word, just that it made a sound that evokes an absence of thought. By saying 'uh' or 'um' you were decreasing the value of your words. I used to agree with this theory. It sounds silly coming out of my mouth. Mostly because I don't have a simple 'uh' or 'um.' I tend to say, "ummmmmmmmm uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh." Basically I sound like an idiot.

Never before has someone made the words 'uh' and 'um' sound so smart as when Barack Obama does it. It's actually strangely refreshing to hear those forbidden public speaking words. I have grown so used to the idiotic chuckle of Bush that I forgot what it was like when someone important speaks. W literally turned my brain into a bowl of broccoli and cheese soup. But hearing Obama use the words 'uh' and 'um' brings tears to my eyes. To think that there is actually someone out there who doesn't have every thing planned out is incredible. Someone who actually thinks about the words that are going to come out of his mouth. Listening to him answer questions is real. He takes his time to think about it and answers them with careful insight. As opposed to Bush who would make a joke about something that could possibly be slightly related and then move off topic.

Also, with less than 55 days to go, this election is getting real. I can't wait for the debates and I especially can't wait for the VP debate. Actually any debate. McCain is considerably outmatched when it comes to being able to answer questions and provide a real answer other than quoting some stump speech and Palin is gonna do about as well against Biden as I would. It's going to be interesting.



Is it just me or was he almost Michael Douglas a la The American President here. I feel like Obama has almost covered all of these areas in the last week or so. He's said about McCain recently, "It's not that he doesn't care, it's that he doesn't get it." "Let's talk about the issues." "Say what you want about me..." It's like the Obama camp called in Aaron Sorkin to write a few things down for them but Sorkin just told them to watch his movie...



Anyways, I'm out. Go big.

-M, p, z & shredder